I know I've been quite the hermit this month, and my most humble apologies goes out to all my friends who wondered what on earth happened to me when I didn't answer calls, return calls, texts and others. I could go into the details but lets just say it wasn't the best month of the year for me and "this and that" happened. Wanted that little bit of seclusion and solitude to deal with the issues at hand and I'm glad to say I'm alright now. At times like this I'm really convinced I could be the last person alive on earth and I'd be happy x.x
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Nasty break-up letter. Dedicated to all the sluts out there. You know who you are.
Brad,
It would be difficult for me to be any more miserable right now, I feel like the worst person ever. First, let me start by saying that I am truly truly sorry, and I hate myself for hurting you. Of all the people in the whole entire world, you were honestly the last person that I would ever want to wrong in any way. There is no excuse at all or anything that happened, so I won’t even try other than to say all of us had WAY too much to drink, and I did a stupid thing. I can handle you being pissed at me, I absolutely deserve it, I can even handle the ugly words that were exchanged between us, what I can’t handle is thinking that you see me as a different person.
It is weird, I feel like I just went through a horrible break up or something. The world looked funny yesterday, I couldn’t crack a smile if you paid me, there are songs I can’t listen to, and I just feel beyond crushed. I don’t know if you meant everything you said to me, and I am hoping that you didn’t. I know that I was wrong on many levels, but I am also hoping that this is something that we can deal with. I know it sounds totally crazy and stupid, but you have come to play such a significant role in my life, I can’t imagine my days without you. It is totally strange and weird to say that, and you could say that my behavior didn’t reflect that, and you would be correct. I hate feeling like you hate me, and I hate feeling like all of your friends think I am a terrible person, because I am not. I know there is nothing I can say or do to take back what happened, but I just want you to know that fighting with you was just about the worst thing I could have ever imagined. It was right up there with one of the ugliest nights of my life, and I would give anything in the world to rewind and fix it.
I am not sure if you will respond to this, part of me thinks that you won’t. If not today, then maybe some other time. Also, thanks for getting my stuff together, although I think my sunglasses are still at your house, if you could keep your eyes peeled for them that would be great. I can’t even focus or work today, I can’t eat, I seriously feel like it was an ugly break up, and I am hoping against hopes that it was not that and you are not done with me. Please don’t cut me off, I really don’t think I can handle that.
I am so sorry.
Elizabeth
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Dear Elizabeth,
Thank you for your concern. I’ll be sure to file it away under “L” for “Long-winded diatribes from drunken whores I couldn’t care less about”.
You did a stupid thing huh? No…doing long division and forgetting to carry the one is “a stupid thing”; Mixing in a red sock with a load of whites is “a stupid thing”; Blowing some guy in a bathroom for 45minutes while I sit at the bar wondering if you’re taking so long because you ate too much bran that morning isn’t as much a “Stupid thing” as it is grounds for permanent removal from my social calendar.
To be honest, I’m not sure if it was more amusing that you went and degraded yourself in a public toilet not once but twice in a 2 hour span, or that you seemed to think that by saying “Well, I didn’t F**k him” somehow gave you a clean slate. So forgive me if I couldn’t care less if the world “looked funny” to you yesterday. Since your world revolves around blow dryers, golden retrievers, Prada Bags and Jelly Beans, I’m sure it must have been most unsettling to actually have to consider someone else’s feelings for 24 hours straight. The good news for you is that my friends don’t think you’re a terrible person, they just think you’re the average run of the mill blond who commands about as much respect as your average child porn collector. I could be wrong but, it’s pretty hard to respect some B&T chick who comes out to spend the night at my place even though she’s seeing someone else in New jersey and winds up tongue-bathing the taint of anyone who decides 30 minutes of droning commentary on Colin Farrell’s new haircut is worth putting up with for a hand job in the men’s room. The good thing about being a guy is that when I eventually bump into the young lad who finger-blasted you on top of a towel dispenser last Saturday, we’ll have a shot and laugh our heads off about the time it happened.
By the way, for the amount of time you claim to spend in spin class you really must be doing something wrong to sport the thunder thighs you do. Watching you parade around my bedroom in a thong was a little like watching sea lions mate. Thought you might like to know.
Talk to you never,
Brad
It would be difficult for me to be any more miserable right now, I feel like the worst person ever. First, let me start by saying that I am truly truly sorry, and I hate myself for hurting you. Of all the people in the whole entire world, you were honestly the last person that I would ever want to wrong in any way. There is no excuse at all or anything that happened, so I won’t even try other than to say all of us had WAY too much to drink, and I did a stupid thing. I can handle you being pissed at me, I absolutely deserve it, I can even handle the ugly words that were exchanged between us, what I can’t handle is thinking that you see me as a different person.
It is weird, I feel like I just went through a horrible break up or something. The world looked funny yesterday, I couldn’t crack a smile if you paid me, there are songs I can’t listen to, and I just feel beyond crushed. I don’t know if you meant everything you said to me, and I am hoping that you didn’t. I know that I was wrong on many levels, but I am also hoping that this is something that we can deal with. I know it sounds totally crazy and stupid, but you have come to play such a significant role in my life, I can’t imagine my days without you. It is totally strange and weird to say that, and you could say that my behavior didn’t reflect that, and you would be correct. I hate feeling like you hate me, and I hate feeling like all of your friends think I am a terrible person, because I am not. I know there is nothing I can say or do to take back what happened, but I just want you to know that fighting with you was just about the worst thing I could have ever imagined. It was right up there with one of the ugliest nights of my life, and I would give anything in the world to rewind and fix it.
I am not sure if you will respond to this, part of me thinks that you won’t. If not today, then maybe some other time. Also, thanks for getting my stuff together, although I think my sunglasses are still at your house, if you could keep your eyes peeled for them that would be great. I can’t even focus or work today, I can’t eat, I seriously feel like it was an ugly break up, and I am hoping against hopes that it was not that and you are not done with me. Please don’t cut me off, I really don’t think I can handle that.
I am so sorry.
Elizabeth
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Dear Elizabeth,
Thank you for your concern. I’ll be sure to file it away under “L” for “Long-winded diatribes from drunken whores I couldn’t care less about”.
You did a stupid thing huh? No…doing long division and forgetting to carry the one is “a stupid thing”; Mixing in a red sock with a load of whites is “a stupid thing”; Blowing some guy in a bathroom for 45minutes while I sit at the bar wondering if you’re taking so long because you ate too much bran that morning isn’t as much a “Stupid thing” as it is grounds for permanent removal from my social calendar.
To be honest, I’m not sure if it was more amusing that you went and degraded yourself in a public toilet not once but twice in a 2 hour span, or that you seemed to think that by saying “Well, I didn’t F**k him” somehow gave you a clean slate. So forgive me if I couldn’t care less if the world “looked funny” to you yesterday. Since your world revolves around blow dryers, golden retrievers, Prada Bags and Jelly Beans, I’m sure it must have been most unsettling to actually have to consider someone else’s feelings for 24 hours straight. The good news for you is that my friends don’t think you’re a terrible person, they just think you’re the average run of the mill blond who commands about as much respect as your average child porn collector. I could be wrong but, it’s pretty hard to respect some B&T chick who comes out to spend the night at my place even though she’s seeing someone else in New jersey and winds up tongue-bathing the taint of anyone who decides 30 minutes of droning commentary on Colin Farrell’s new haircut is worth putting up with for a hand job in the men’s room. The good thing about being a guy is that when I eventually bump into the young lad who finger-blasted you on top of a towel dispenser last Saturday, we’ll have a shot and laugh our heads off about the time it happened.
By the way, for the amount of time you claim to spend in spin class you really must be doing something wrong to sport the thunder thighs you do. Watching you parade around my bedroom in a thong was a little like watching sea lions mate. Thought you might like to know.
Talk to you never,
Brad
Friday, August 22, 2008
Quote of the Month (August)
"God is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh" - Voltaire
Nice one eh.. couldn't agree more. And if you're wondering what happened to July's Quote of the Month, here it is;
"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much." - Anonymous
Nice one eh.. couldn't agree more. And if you're wondering what happened to July's Quote of the Month, here it is;
"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much." - Anonymous
Thursday, August 14, 2008
These days are fast, love don't last, in this graceless age - Even innocence has caught the midnight train
These Days
Bon Jovi
Richie Sambora & Jon Bon Jovi
I was walking around, just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out of the rain
Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
Wondered if I might end up the same
There's a man out on the corner
Singing old songs about change
Everybody's got their cross to bare, these days
She came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams
To a motel room on the boulevard
Guess she's trying to be James Dean
She's seen all the disciples and all the "wanna be's"
No one wants to be themselves these days
Still there's nothing to hold on to but these days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days - are fast, love don't last in this graceless age
There ain't nobody left but us these days
Jimmy shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
From a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
His momma said he was crazy - he said momma "I've got to try"
Don't you know that all my heroes died
And I guess I'd rather die than fa-fa-fade away
These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days are fast, love don't last-in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train
And there ain't nobody left but us these days
I know Rome's still burning
Though the times have changed
This world keeps turning round and round and round and round
These days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
These days are fast, love don't last-in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train
And there ain't nobody left but us these days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days - are fast, nothing lasts
There ain't no time to waste
There ain't nobody left to take the blame
There ain't nobody left but us these days
Bon Jovi
Richie Sambora & Jon Bon Jovi
I was walking around, just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out of the rain
Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
Wondered if I might end up the same
There's a man out on the corner
Singing old songs about change
Everybody's got their cross to bare, these days
She came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams
To a motel room on the boulevard
Guess she's trying to be James Dean
She's seen all the disciples and all the "wanna be's"
No one wants to be themselves these days
Still there's nothing to hold on to but these days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days - are fast, love don't last in this graceless age
There ain't nobody left but us these days
Jimmy shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
From a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
His momma said he was crazy - he said momma "I've got to try"
Don't you know that all my heroes died
And I guess I'd rather die than fa-fa-fade away
These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days are fast, love don't last-in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train
And there ain't nobody left but us these days
I know Rome's still burning
Though the times have changed
This world keeps turning round and round and round and round
These days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
These days are fast, love don't last-in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train
And there ain't nobody left but us these days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days - are fast, nothing lasts
There ain't no time to waste
There ain't nobody left to take the blame
There ain't nobody left but us these days
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Wikipedia sez...
Artificial Stupidity is commonly used as a humorous opposite of the term artificial intelligence (AI), often as a derogatory reference to the inability of an AI program to adequately perform basic tasks. However, within the field of computer science, artificial stupidity is also used to refer to a technique of "dumbing down" computer programs in order to deliberately introduce errors in their responses.
Alan Turing, in his 1952 paper Computing Machinery and Intelligence, proposed a test for intelligence which has since become known as the Turing test. While there a number of different versions, the original test, described by Turing as being based on the "Imitation Game", involved a "machine intelligence" (a computer running an AI program), a female participant, and an interrogator. Both the AI and the female participant were to claim that they were female, and the interrogator's task was to work out which was the female participant and which was not by examining the participant's responses to typed questions. While it isn't necessarily clear whether or not Turing intended that the interrogator was to know that one of the participants was a computer, while discussing some of the possible objections to his argument Turing raised the concern that "machines cannot make mistakes".
"It is claimed that the interrogator could distinguish the machine from the man simply by setting them a number of problems in arithmetic. The machine would be unmasked because of its deadly accuracy."
—Turing, 1950, page 448
As Turing then noted, the reply to this is a simple one: the machine should not attempt to "give the right answers to the arithmetic errors". Instead, deliberate errors should be introduced to the computer's responses.
Within computer science, there are at least two major applications for artificial stupidity: the generation of deliberate errors in chatbots attempting to pass the Turing test or to otherwise fool a participant into believing that they are human; and the deliberate limition of computer AIs in video games in order to control the game's difficulty.
The first Loebner prize competition was run in 1993. As reported in The Economist, the winning entry incorporated deliberate errors - described by The Economist as "artificial stupidity" - to fool the judges into believing that it was human. This technique has remained a part of the subsequent Loebner prize competitions, and reflects the issue first raised by Turing.
Lars Lidén argues that good game design involves finding a balance between the computer's "intelligence" and the player's ability to win. By finely tuning the level of "artificial stupidity", it is possible to create computer controlled plays that allow the player to win, but do so "without looking unintelligent".
According to its definition, a sufficiently developed Artificial Stupidity program would be able to make all the worst cases regarding a given situation. This would enable computer programmers and analysts to find flaws immediately while minimizing errors that are within the code.
However, it is mostly expected to be used within the development and debugging stages of computer software.
Excerpt taken in whole from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Artificial_stupidity
Monday, July 7, 2008
Quirky Love Song
This must be one of those really cute and quirky love songs, take a look at the lyrics and you'll know what I mean!
I Don't Know Why I Love You
Joey McIntyre
I Don't Know Why I Love You
Joey McIntyre
[Chorus]
I don't know why I love you
But baby you know I do
And it took so long to find you girl
I'm never losing you
Go to bed mad, fuss and fight
Wake up, make love middle of the night
I don't understand all the things you do
But baby I could never stay mad at you
And I think that this could last forever
[chorus]
I don't know why I love you
But baby you know I do
And it took so long to find you girl
I'm never losing you
I don't know why you love me
But baby I'm glad that you do
And I'm wide awake to realize
That you were meant for me
And I was meant for you
Sometimes I think there's someone better for me
Who says and does things perfectly
A flawless someone warm and sweet
Then I realize you're right next to me
And I think that this could last forever - yeah
[chorus]
The story of us goes on and on
And it's never gonna end 'cause it's much too
strong, too strong
[chorus]
I was meant for you
I don't know why I, I don't know why I, I don't why I love you
but
I I don't know why I, I don't know why I, I don't know why I love you
but I do
I don't know why I love you
But baby you know I do
And it took so long to find you girl
I'm never losing you
Go to bed mad, fuss and fight
Wake up, make love middle of the night
I don't understand all the things you do
But baby I could never stay mad at you
And I think that this could last forever
[chorus]
I don't know why I love you
But baby you know I do
And it took so long to find you girl
I'm never losing you
I don't know why you love me
But baby I'm glad that you do
And I'm wide awake to realize
That you were meant for me
And I was meant for you
Sometimes I think there's someone better for me
Who says and does things perfectly
A flawless someone warm and sweet
Then I realize you're right next to me
And I think that this could last forever - yeah
[chorus]
The story of us goes on and on
And it's never gonna end 'cause it's much too
strong, too strong
[chorus]
I was meant for you
I don't know why I, I don't know why I, I don't why I love you
but
I I don't know why I, I don't know why I, I don't know why I love you
but I do
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Maybe its time to Dream Again?
Some of you may know I'm a huge J-Culture kinda guy, and I've been hooked on J-Doramas (drama) for many years now. The most recent one I had the time to watch is titled "Dream Again", starring none other than my favourite actor, Takashi Sorimachi (of Great Teacher Onizuka fame).
Takashi Sorimachi takes on the role of a pro baseball player, Shunsuke Ogi, who is forced to retire after a shoulder injury. He continues to train in hopes of returning to the game, but a sudden accident leads to his death. God decides to give him a second chance, placing his soul into the body of another man - a wealthy fund company manager - but adjusting to his new life isn't easy.
This series is classed more as a sports/human drama - it has subtle blends of family, sports, romance and human drama mixed in. The opening episode is really well set up for viewers - the plot is something new and fresh as are the cast.
Takashi Sorimachi takes on the role of a pro baseball player, Shunsuke Ogi, who is forced to retire after a shoulder injury. He continues to train in hopes of returning to the game, but a sudden accident leads to his death. God decides to give him a second chance, placing his soul into the body of another man - a wealthy fund company manager - but adjusting to his new life isn't easy.This series is classed more as a sports/human drama - it has subtle blends of family, sports, romance and human drama mixed in. The opening episode is really well set up for viewers - the plot is something new and fresh as are the cast.
You can stream watch the series at either one of the sites below;
1) http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_Dream_Again
2) http://www.mysoju.com/dream-again/
Some clips from the series;
1) http://www.crunchyroll.com/group/CRSeries_-_Dream_Again
2) http://www.mysoju.com/dream-again/
Some clips from the series;
I happened to love the theme song to this J-Dorama, titled Aoku Yasashiku by Kobukuro. The video is attached here for listening/viewing pleasure :)Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Quote of the Month (June)
Drum roll please...
Mind over Matter : If you don't mind, it doesn't matter
- My dear friend Zack (http://apexprime.multiply.com/)
Mind over Matter : If you don't mind, it doesn't matter
- My dear friend Zack (http://apexprime.multiply.com/)
Jimmy Eat World - Carry You
Just wanting to share a particular song off Jimmy Eat World's Chase This Light (2007) album, a track titled "Carry You". For the last 3 weeks or so, I've felt that I could relate to the lyrics a lot due a chain of events. But things have somehow, somewhat, changed for the better today, and I'm hoping for the best. Still, I'd like to share the song. Enjoy.
Carry You
Jimmy Eat World
2007
When I know I'm all alone
I say your name slowly
And I know that I'm alone
But I carry you
Does it feel good like the memory
When you try some history
It's a dream to come around
The rule doesn't bend,
Because the taste doesn't taste the same again
It's easy feeling righteous when removed
All you'll get is what you wanna hear
It hurts because it should
How else am I to make it clear?
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed.
Maybe your lie is what I need sometimes
You told the most and best of anyone
You said to "keep me in your pocket"
So I carried you
You better choose your words carefully
Because I'm not your anything
Gonna stay here in my place
And you'll stay in yours because
Your only good is what you're good for
I pace around the room to spend the time
Waiting while the burning pictures fade
One thing to make your mind
And another to say it's me
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed, it passed.
I'm still carrying a little hope that
Maybe things could be different now
Is that so wrong, is that so wrong, is that so wrong?
Would I see you tonight
At a place we'll go
(going through the motions, they lead to rhythm motion)
I wanna make things right
Before time runs out.
(it was like you said, the taste don't taste like it should)
Roll down the windows
Let the cold air come in
Slap my face just to feel, to feel you somehow again, again
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed.
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Yeah, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed.
'Cause it passed, it passed, it passed.
I say your name slowly
And I know that I'm alone
But I carry you
Does it feel good like the memory
When you try some history
It's a dream to come around
The rule doesn't bend,
Because the taste doesn't taste the same again
It's easy feeling righteous when removed
All you'll get is what you wanna hear
It hurts because it should
How else am I to make it clear?
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed.
Maybe your lie is what I need sometimes
You told the most and best of anyone
You said to "keep me in your pocket"
So I carried you
You better choose your words carefully
Because I'm not your anything
Gonna stay here in my place
And you'll stay in yours because
Your only good is what you're good for
I pace around the room to spend the time
Waiting while the burning pictures fade
One thing to make your mind
And another to say it's me
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed, it passed.
I'm still carrying a little hope that
Maybe things could be different now
Is that so wrong, is that so wrong, is that so wrong?
Would I see you tonight
At a place we'll go
(going through the motions, they lead to rhythm motion)
I wanna make things right
Before time runs out.
(it was like you said, the taste don't taste like it should)
Roll down the windows
Let the cold air come in
Slap my face just to feel, to feel you somehow again, again
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Well, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed.
I could never be the one that you want, don't ask.
Yeah, here's to living in the moment
'Cause it passed.
'Cause it passed, it passed, it passed.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Random snaps from 4th to 6th June 2008
The view from the chalet
Boozing spot
Burau Bay's view
Garden-view of Mutiara Burau Bay Resort
Trying to look cute, and failing miserably
Pantai Cenang, late-evening
Underwater World Langkawi, Pantai Cenang
At the docks, right before the island-hopping trip
Pantai Beras Bersih, if I recall correctly
Looks fun?
View from the cable car
The cable-car destination
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